Month: February 2018
energy doesnt lie. it has a signature, a feel similar to a colour. some energies are harmonious, some are not. some are neutral. energy can be faked, but not effectively if you are attuned to your body. bodies can’t lie unless they are being sedated in some way. once you achieve an equilibrium your […]
Reverse engineering your mental illness
What are your triggers?How do they manifest? Are you able to begin to desensitize y0ourself by merely considering the worst case scenareio. then figure out what you would do to find the maximum beneficial solutions for yourself and others where balance is maintained, and eqquilibriuj is only upset with good reason. desensitization ability to […]
One of the most challenging aspects of having psychiatric symptoms is the search for a medicine that can offer some relief to the sufferer, with the minimal amount of side effects interfering with the enjoyment of life. Meds come in different categories and target different parts of the brain. For example, this is an infographic […]
Hello From Inside
There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own Soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious. ~ C.G. Jung The first time I consciously remember experiencing the effects of PTSD, was […]
I’m Sorry Too.
It has always been my policy to walk away from difficult relationships without making a scene, and see what happens. It’s a win-win strategic move. If the person doesn’t notice your exit, or doesn’t seem to mind, you know the time to move on has arrived, and feel no guilt or doubt for your exit. […]
I laughed pretty hard when I saw this meme, but mostly because it was uncomfortably truthful. I have been a bitch. The last six months have been brutal on my already damaged social life. My feelings of helplessness and seething anger were further rritated by the unavoidable truth that there is no place around […]
Cracks on memory lane.
I retain few memories of any given point in my past. If I consciously think of an event, I can sometimes pull up more information, but in general it is like I am only able to see snap shots of activity. Some events are so threatening to my conscious awareness that i have purposefully chosen […]
Marina Abramovic #goals
Struggling with mental health and identity is not who I am, but rather a piece of the puzzle of who I have become. More than anything I identify with being an artist, and being obsessed with exploring emotional intimacy. I want to create spaces where real dialogue about important things can happen, without the constraints […]
PTSD The Gift That Keeps Giving
I experienced the first of many remembered ‘switches’ between identies last August. I can only tell you that it is often so subtle as to be unnoticable, or so unmistakable that in hindsight, it seems odd it wasn’t picked up immediately. There are very clear triggers. One time in a playful moment, my husband picked […]
It is scary.
It is scary to press the publish button. It is scary to think about being truthful to myself, and doing myself the honour of trying my best to heal my heart. It’s uncomfortable, the degree to which I have adapted myself over a lifetime to serve the needs of others. It is heartbreaking to realize […]